Sunday, November 27, 2011

unpacking

We are buried in boxes and overcome with happiness in our new home. I'll be back to regular updates soon! Thank you so much for all the sweet comments and good vibes as we make this big transition.

Hoping you are all enjoying wonderful, blessed days as November winds down. XOXO.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

bye, NYC

Bye, NYC.
You've been so good to us!
We love you forever!!!
XOXO,
Leigh, Taro, and the Kiddos

PS: Remember all the fun we've had?

Friday, November 18, 2011

the end of an era

This is to be our last weekend as residents of New York City.

Tuesday night after Taro got off work we got our first car as a family -- a minivan, to be exact. When we arrived home with our new wheels it was approaching 11 pm, an hour and a half later than we had originally promised the babysitter we would be getting back. In hopes of making it up to her a little bit, we decided to drive her to her apartment in Queens. In a celebratory mood, I told my drowsy, pajama-clad kiddos to put on their shoes and get ready to take their inaugural ride in the new vehicle.

We piled in, to oohs and ahhs, and set off for Long Island City. Within a few blocks the boys were asleep in their car seats, as the rest of us figured out how to navigate onto and off of the Queensborough Bridge. We dropped the sitter off at her place, noted that it was midnight, and suddenly realized how completely famished we were.

We were staring across the dashboard and over the East River at the glittering Manhattan skyline when it was decided: we needed a falafel from Mamouns and a slice from Joe's.

And so began our impromptu, epic-feeling, wee-hours tour of our beloved city, back across the bridge, into the Upper East Side, down through midtown and the East Village, then through Greenwich Village before heading North again and ending up in our 'hood, the Upper West Side.

I started getting choked up when we passed all the sparkly stores on 5th avenue. I could remember so vividly the snowy January night in 2004 when Taro and I went to look at my sculpture, which had just been displayed in the windows of Saks Fifth Avenue, alongside a ethereal Carolina Herrera gown. Could that really have only been seven years ago? It felt about a million lifetimes away.

It was kind of thrilling and surreal to whizz downtown in our own ride at such an ungodly hour. Memories were flooding back with each block. Flashes of favorite meals at old standby restaurants, recollections of achingly hard days/months when it seemed like the relentlessness of The City was just too much, thoughts of little milestones and big ones too...

My first walk, alone in Manhattan, from Astor Place to the Metropolitan Museum of Art and back again (I was freaked out about getting on the subway/bus alone, and I didn't know how to hail a cab. Plus walking was so exciting!)

Waiting outside Saint Vincent's Hospital on 9/11, feeling scared and helpless and numb.

The time Taro picked me up from my little sublet studio apartment in the wholesale district and took me to the Metropolitan Opera for my birthday.

Working at Screaming Mimis and subsisting on pomme frites and coffee for the better part of two years.

That day at work that I had a conversation with Yoko Ono, and she told me about losing the love of her life.

Getting dolled up and going swing dancing on W. 46th Street.

Volunteering for Our Time in its first seasons.

Having to take the stairs during the Blackout of 2003 (we lived on the 23rd floor).

Serendipitously meeting my late grandmother's old dear friend from her Mississippi childhood, who happened to live two floors below me. Befriending her and hanging out at her apartment drinking red wine and mint juleps (not at the same time) and hearing amazing stories of making it big in New York in the 60's and 70's.

Missing her so much when she passed away a couple of years later.

Brunches here.

Quitting my job in retail and renting my first studio space to make sculpture full time.

Getting invited to Fashion Week for the first time and obsessing over what to wear.

Getting verbally harassed by some creep on the R train.

Watching friends get arrested while peacefully protesting the Iraq War during the Republican convention.

Suffering through a really really severe case of chicken pox at the age of 26.

Finding out I was pregnant for the first time, and then only wanting to eat here for months.

Moving to the UWS and feeling like we had moved to a different planet.

Having a baby, and then another.

Feeling like we owned Central Park...

Soon we were driving past our old apartment, on 8th Street, then gazing up at the arch in Washington Square Park. We pulled up to Mamouns and I got out and ordered one of their transcendent falafel sandwiches, which I did not wait to eat (mama's got to get those calories!) Then Taro stopped by Joe's, ran in an brought back two slices. We ate those in the car (calories, I said!), parked at Father Demo Square, marveling at the hoards of people and cars and bikes and mopeds out at 1 in the morning. We decided we had stumbled upon a great new kind of date, one that consists of chauffeuring sleeping children around the city while we have great conversations and eat amazing food in the front seat of the car in the middle of the night.

We got back to our neighborhood and miraculously found parking on the street a few blocks from home. It was starting to rain a little as we carried the still-soundly-sleeping (and heavy! How did they get so heavy?!) boys into our building and put them back to bed.

It was 2 am when we snuggled down beside them a few minutes later, exhausted and emotional and happy.

Feeling grateful for such a wonderful life.

And looking forward to the next adventure.

Birth Story of the Week: A Poem by Pablo Neruda

los nacimientos (births)

we will never have any memory of dying.
we were so patient
about our being,
noting down
numbers, days,
years and months,
hair, and the mouths we kiss,
and that moment of dying
we let pass without a note -
we leave it to others as memory,
or we leave it simply to water,
to water, to air, to time.
nor do we even keep
the memory of being born,
although to come into being was tumultuous and new;
and now you don’t remember a single detail
and haven’t kept even a trace
of your first light.
it’s well known that we are born.
it’s well known that in the room
or in the wood
or in the shelter in the fishermen’s quarter
or in the rustling canefields
there is a quite unusual silence,
a grave and wooden moment as
a woman prepares to give birth.
it’s well known that we were all born.
but if that abrupt translation
from not being to existing, to having hands,
to seeing, to having eyes,
to eating and weeping and overflowing
and loving and loving and suffering and suffering,
of that transition, that quivering
of an electric presence, raising up
one body more, like a living cup,
and of that woman left empty,
the mother who is left there in her blood
and her lacerated fullness,
and its end and its beginning, and disorder
tumbling the pulse, the floor, the covers
till everything comes together and adds
one knot more to the thread of life,
nothing, nothing remains in your memory
of the savage sea which summoned up a wave
and plucked a shrouded apple from the tree.
the only thing you remember is your life.

-pablo neruda

Thank you to Elizabeth for introducing me to this beautiful piece.
Painting by Luo Fa Hui, entitled "Mother and Child".

Thursday, November 17, 2011

sakura bloom needs you

I am reaching out to ask for your generosity in supporting a member of the Sakura Bloom family in her time of deep need. Our dear friend -- mother of two young children, a wife, an artist, a joyful person with a beautiful spirit, the first-ever Sakura Bloom model and face of the company -- is very ill. Diagnosed with three separate diseases (rheumatoid arthritis, ulcerative colitis, and acute sclerosing cholangitis) and two advanced tumors on her liver, she needs urgent care. We are raising funds to offset her expenses.

Please click here to purchase raffle tickets and be entered to win one of six gorgeous Sakura Bloom slings. 100% of funds raised will go directly to K and her family. Thank you so much for your help!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Lebasque on Breastfeeding

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Mother and Child, by Henri Lebasque

Here's an earlier post featuring the same artist and subject matter.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

what we're reading

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The kiddos and I have been on a big reading kick lately, and we wanted to share some of our favorite recent/current reads!

Jackson cemented his status as Junior Bookaholic of the household (I'm Senior Bookaholic, duh!) when he begged me to stay up until almost midnight reading Stuart Little in one sitting. I hadn't read it since my own childhood, so I had forgotten it's many charms and was as delighted to devour it as he was. In the week since, we have gone back to our favorite chapters numerous times to be entertained and inspired by the larger-than-life exploits of the tiny New York City native.

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I decided to keep our momentum going, so the day after we read Stuart Little I broke out Island of the Blue Dolphins. It's a significantly more advanced read, but I figured it would keep Junior Bookaholic hooked with its compelling mix of adventure, suspense, and intrigue. I was right. Not only did Jackson get sucked in to the story (which is based on true events) but I even found Taro reading it aloud on several occasions, and he often asked what he had missed when the kids and I read it without him. We were all transfixed and inspired by the tale of young Karana, who is left to survive alone on a remote island for years, relying on her wits and resourcefulness to evade the many dangers that stalk her.

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George and Martha is another classic that we recently became enamored of. It's a totally delightful read, the brevity and simplicity of which belies it's rather profound depiction of love and friendship.

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Abbey loaned me her beloved copy of Bird by Bird several months ago, and the fact that I am just now nearing the final chapters is simply an indication of how much I love it, and that I have wanted to savor it and re-read as I go, and basically never have it end. Anne Lamott is one of my favorite authors (Operating Instructions is a must-read for anyone with kids), so reading her observations and advice on writing and life feels like an amazing privilege. As always, her voice is uniquely funny, honest, and humane.

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I'm just two chapters in to Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me?, but I've already laughed out loud at least ten times, and I'm more sure than ever that I would love to be friends with Mindy Kaling.

What are you reading? Share in the comments!

Friday, November 11, 2011

holiday craft fun

Yesterday, the kiddos and I went to a crafting party thrown by our friends over at Martha Stewart! The event was held at Pins and Needles, and it was all kinds of fun...
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Walker was super-into the chalkboard fabric ornament craft (although I think his favorite part was emptying the bucket of chalk out onto the table over and over again)...
here we are working on some button-embelished greeting cards...
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and a sweet smile from Jackson, a very happy crafter :)

It was such a lovely event and the facilitators for each craft were so great with the kids. We definitely left feeling inspired to have a more handmade holiday season this year.

Check out the following links to see all the details on creating the crafts we made at the party:

Do you get into the crafting spirit when the holidays roll around? What ideas are you planning to try out this year? I'd love to know! Since we're moving to an actual house soon, I am SO looking forward to having the space to be artsy/crafty/creative with the kids all year round, but especially during the holidays.

Photos by Mike Krautter. Courtesy of Martha Stewart’s “Living in the Family Room” Blog.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Picasso on Breastfeeding

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Maternite, 1905

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Maternite, 1963

wednesday giveaway

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Today's giveaway is from designer Michelle Hartney. This fun collection of bags, charms, and headbands perfectly reflects Michelle's clever, feminine sensibility. Understated at times, exuberant and bold at others, this collection gathers inspiration from music, art, street fashion, film, and mother Earth.

The Red and Blue Tag Necklace is the newest piece from the Color Code line which combines color blocks of ribbon and antiqued silver chain, along with a white porcelain bead to create a unique and contemporary necklace.

The total length of the piece is 28" and will come in a beautiful gift box. The ribbon tags have been reinforced and are very firm and sturdy and measure 1.5 x .75 inches. The porcelain bead is .5".

To enter to win, please visit Michelle Hartney and then leave a comment on this post listing your favorite item, no later than 11:59 pm, Friday, November 11th. A winner will be chosen at random and announced on Monday. Good luck!

UPDATE: The lucky winner of the necklace is Manding. Congratulations and please email me by Friday, November 18, to claim your prize. leigh(at)leighpennebaker(dot)com!

holding pattern

We have some kind of big news that I have not yet delved into here on ye olde blogue, but I think it's getting to be time.

And when I say "kind of big news" I mean like, really big.

In less than two weeks, we are moving.

Out of NYC.

To the suburbs.

Out of the apartment my children were born in.

Into a house.

Our first house.

We are filled with excitement and melancholy, happiness and stress, expectation and fear.

Most of all, we are filled with readiness.

We love New York so much (we have lived here for over thirty-six years, combined), yet we know it is now time for us to leave. We are falling in love with a new place, yet the relationship is untested.

Right now we are in this weird limbo, basically prepared for moving day in all the technical ways, and yet just kind of waiting through the last days and weeks.

I just told Taro, right now it's like we are in a holding pattern and when the holding pattern ends we're going to have a whole new life.

And that's the news.

Photo found here.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

bump news, week 23

Everybody wanted to get a piece of the photobooth action today when I started to document The Bump! I always forget how the best family pictures come from completely unplanned moments of goofiness and delight. Click image for a larger version.

We can see The Bump moving now, when it kicks! The boys get a charge out of zerberting my belly, and listening to the heartbeat last week was once again a surreal thrill for all of us.

My sister-in-law recently gave us a bunch of hand-me-down picture books that her kids have outgrown, one of which is called Welcome With Love, and it is wonderful. Have you heard of it? The book tells the story of a home birth with incredibly touching words and illustrations, and is one of the most sensitive, poetic-yet-realistic depictions of birth I have come across. We read it often together as a meditation on bringing this new life into the world and welcoming it into our family with reverence and love. Check it out, if you haven't already ;)

Friday, November 4, 2011

friday giveaway

Today I am excited to offer a lovely giveaway from Miss Yesterday, a shop based in Melbourne, Australia. Owner, Marianna Gentilin was a primary school teacher who travelled a lot for a decade before starting her family. Now the mother of two, Oscar and Giselle, she started Sisters' Market with her sister in 2008. Marianna loves running this indoor market filled with all the local talent and as a spin off she opened Miss Yesterday last month.

Miss Yesterday is inspired by travel, cultural experiences, childhood memories and the joy of a new find. Driven by the five senses, their hand picked collection will take you on a journey around this big small world we live in.

The item being offered in this giveaway is a Camille Set, which includes a tiny pocket doll in a matchbox house and a sixteen page booklet full of unique black and white illustrations by Paula Mills ready for you to color as you wish.

Camille lives in a matchbox doll house with her budgie friend or her cuckoo clock and she dreams about all her adventures. She dreams of talking to elephants, riding with swans in the moonlight and flying with angels. She loves to hear about your dreams too. She is hand stitched on to felt, slightly stuffed, and sits neatly in her house.

In the colouring book Camille is dancing with the wind, swinging from trees, laughing, hugging elephants, flying with angels, floating in tea cups and much, much, more!

The house measures approximately 5cm (2").
The booklet measures approximately 21cm x 15cm ( 6" x8.25").

Handmade in Australia.

To enter to win, please visit the shop and then leave a comment on this post listing your favorite item, no later than 11:59 pm, Monday, November 7th. A winner will be chosen at random and announced on Tuesday.

Also, please note the sale running on Miss Yesterday through November Enter NOVEMBER at checkout for 20% off your purchase storewide!

UPDATE, 11/8/11: The lucky winner of this giveaway is Miriam. Congrats Miriam, and thanks to all who entered!

Thursday, November 3, 2011

the best...

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reading nook, ever!
Found on one of my faves, The Boo and The Boy.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Serebriakova on Breastfeeding

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Nurse with baby, by Zinaida Serebriakova, c. 1912

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

trick-or-treat

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Last night we had a Jedi and a pint-sized Batman roaming the neighborhood, in league with their pal, the cutest Garden Gnome ever.

Thanks for the top photo, Abbey ;)